Coat Tails

This is uncomfortable

I

Am uncomfortable

Decision point approaches

And this time it's my choice 

Or

Is it

Because whichever way I choose 

Is loss

Whichever way I choose

Is risk

And I don't know who I am yet

So 

How can I make that bet

Because all I have 

Is a list of what I'm not

A dogged determination that I'm not quite sure what to do with 

I am frenetic energy spiraling toward entropy 

And, possibly

Taking everything I love with me 

Yet somehow decision point approaches

And this time it's my choice

-EJoveJohnson